About the Other Side

In a place inside your heart
We are in a dialogue

When I said,
"I need you"
You looked confused
As if believing the opposite

When you said,
"You are a hypocrite"
I said, "I'm not"
Then you said, "you are a liar"
I said, "I'm not"

Suddenly I stopped
Cold sweat all over my face,
And the world became vacant of my attention.

I am afraid.

How can I be sure,
That there is such a place inside your heart.
In which we are in a dialogue,
In which dialogue I rejected all your allegations?

Then, I find calmness
I am sure
By the gesture everyday  you always make
You'll never converse of what I am alleged,
And I am safe.

Deep Blue Condolences

On dry land

Your cold body is awaited

With fragile heart,

And soul trying to stand still

Your address is a mystery

Lying in the deep blue sea

They forgot how it used to be

With you together, celebrating in New Year’s Eve

The news came too fast

And they are not ready

The flashing lights and recorders

Exploit

Are you still around,

Lingering in same space and time?

Have you moved on?

For us it's hard to carry on

Their warmth won't bring you back

Their tears won't satiate your thirst

And their feelings won't connect to you

But in their heart and memory,

Your self will live on.

Nasib

Seorang mahasiswa katanya gelisah dan tertindas.
Suatu malam ia bernyanyi, berjalan dan melamun.
Dia terlindas.

Campur aduk

Lagi berpikir untuk membuat puisi
Tapi banyak hal yang ada dalam kepala
sampai-sampai berpikir hampir tidak bisa.

Belum lagi tugas akhir tahun
Mereka semua membuat hari-hari tidak tenang
Bersyukurlah mereka yang punya kepintaran di atas rata-rata!

Saat membuat ini, perut saya minta dikasih makan
Kadang-kadang kesal
Kenapa harus punya badan?
atau kenapa badan harus dirawat?
Kulit dibasuh, rambut dicuci, gigi disikat.

Kebanyakan berpikir, akan hal yang tidak perlu
Bisa bikin gila.
Pernah saya hampir berpikir buat bunuh diri karena itu,
Tapi untung
Jiwa pengecut menyelamatkan saya.

Sedang ingin pindah planet.
Mungkin Mars
Karena katanya itu yg paling mirip dengan bumi
Sejauh ini, dan sedekat ini

Banyak sekali yang harus ditanggung di bumi
Dan kita ga bisa memilih berhenti dengan mati
Itu lebih ke melarikan diri

Sudah dulu,
Saya lapar
Perut, si badan, minta makan

Tugas minta dikerjakan,
Dan harusnya saya tidak sesantai ini
Prokrastinasi, mencoba menulis puisi

The Students of Natural Science

The hallway always look dark and grey
Although you may think that it must be sad
When it is shined by sunlight, though
You just want to be a part of it

At that time
I frequently complaint
About the lesson that I can't understand
The fear of having too long of my hair
The hallway that's always look dark and grey
And my ability to connect and gaining connection

It's so painful now.
Remembering all the voices,
The noises that I won't be able to hear
anymore.
Remembering the taste of it,
Of its lunch (brunch?) break
Remembering how all of those mixed up
And giving no chance of not missing them.

The smile of her,
The friendship of him,
The terrorizing math
The impossible to understand physics
The always piece of cake English
and the always chained me as a part of it.

Now I'm here writing
Making back of what I've left behind
Realizing,
What was the imperfect,
Is the most perfect thing that I could have.

So long,
Adieu.

A Dying Patient's Last Wish

I want to LIVE!
Forever...

"Fuck Future"

I don't know if I can say it or not,
but recently
I got something that I want to see.
Whether It will happens, or happens not.